I received a letter from my son today. It made me cry when I read it. In fact, I am crying as I write this post. I cannot believe that he is in jail. I cannot believe the turn of events that led to his imprisonment.. He is trying hard to make me feel better. He is trying so hard to be strong. He asked me to send him some books to occupy his time. I would gladly change places with him. I feel so much guilt for not letting him come home before all of this started.. The guilt and despair that I feel is immeasurable. I am wearing these posts on my shoulder for the world to see. I am in so much pain. I would not wish this pain on my worst enemy. I wouldn’t even wish it on the prosecutors or attorneys. No one should have to experience these feelings of anguish and unhappiness. No one.